I'm going to start off by saying that it is extremely hard for me to write a blog because I always read back over it and criticize myself and delete it, so for now I'm just going to type my thoughts and not worry how it comes out. I'm not really sure if anyone reads this anyway.
My senior year is quickly coming to a close and while I am extremely excited to move on and see where God is taking my life, it is also a really scary and sad time for me. You see, I've never been a big fan of changes, and I have some huge changes coming my way. But I'm not scared of the obvious change of leaving high school and starting college. I'm actually really excited to go to college and even more so to go to camp this summer. However, I am scared of losing my friends in the process. I know there will be a lot of people I won't ever see again after high school, and with some people I'm okay with that; others, not so much. I guess this is just a time to find out who my real friends are and those friendships are the ones that will last.
So, while this has absolutely nothing to do with anything mentioned above, it has been weighing on my mind lately. I am one of those people that you could call a "fixer." I always feel like there should be something I could do to fix other people's (and even my own) problems. I have been learning to rely on God more and more to be the "fixer" but I still feel the need to help out. Which brings me to my problem: There are so many people that I want to reach out to, but feel that I can't for whatever reason, especially those I look up to.
Yet another random topic. I am extremely excited about this summer. I get to work at my favorite place and with some of my favorite people. I'm really excited to see camp from a perspective other than a camper and to see everything God is going to show me while I'm there.
That's all the randomness for now. Maybe since school is getting closer to the end, I can find time to write more often. but probably not.
y, though, I brought my new Bible in to show Granny and, to take my mind off the storm outside, I read through Philippians 4. Paul talks a lot about being content with your situation by focusing on God and allowing Him to guard our hearts and be our strength. How many times do we go throughout a day and let the small things [like a cancelled banquet or a storm for example] put us in a bad mood and ke
ep us from seeing the amazing things God is doing around us. [Yes, the storm may have postponed the banquet and had me scared for a little while, but God kept me and my family safe.] I, for one, tend to do that all to much. I get caught up in the mini-storms of life and don't take the time to slow down and see that God is protecting me and providing a way for me to get through it. If I just let God handle the situation, rather than worrying or stressing over it, I can rejoice [just as Paul did from prison!!] that God is in control and that He will make it work for my good. After all, worry and stress doesn't get you very far anyway. So, even though it's storming outside, I know that God is in control, and I don't have to be afraid. 